This Is What I Feel

I wan't to express what I feel right now. I wan't
you to know what's running on my mind. This is what I feel and I hope you'll understand me.


I remember when I was left alone by the people arround me. I felt abandoned. I felt sadness. I felt uncomfortable. I felt alone.

When I'm going to the church to attend the worship service my family is not with me anymore. They're all busy in wasting their sabbath day. Watching DVD, Playing Computer Games, Watching TV and many more. They're not like that before. They're attending the worship service every sunday but now they're doing their own things.

In my church before my fellow youth are bonded with God. Leading the congragation to praise and worship our God. Grateful and joyful when we're having fellowship. When time goes by one by one they leave the church. Because of church issues, self issues, family issues and other things. Then one day I woke up and found myself alone with great responsibilities on my shoulder.

In my schooling at first I am happy because I have lot of friends in my school but i chose to be with my Christian friends. We're happy sharing the word of God to others. But because of finacial problem I stopped schooling. Because of that my friends in school lacked communication and now they're not texting me anymore.

I felt abandoned and alone. Nobody is with me to help, encourage, comfort and rebuke. They all left me but there's someone who never left me alone and abandoned me. He helped me when i'm in need. Encouraged me when i'm in discouraged. Comforted me when I need comfort. Rebuked me when I am walking in the wrong way. That is Jesus. He's always with me and never leave me.

Our God never fail. He is all powerful God. He is everlasting God. He is everywhere. He is with me and with you always.

I remember what Jayson Barbosa said "if God took it off He will replace it with much better" God replaced everything.

Now I am very grateful. I feel I am surrounded by so great clouds of witnesses. I feel I am not alone anymore. In my family, my younger sister is attending the worship service with me and I know and claiming that little by little God will change my family

My church friends before are giving time to be with each other again. They'll help the youth of our church again.

My college friends started to text me again. Talk to me and giving time to each other.

I am grateful because God never fail and never leave me. He replaced everything more than what I have before. Now God gave me a friends and family who'll always be with me and added more to help me and encourge me. He added YM family to make me feel i'm not alone.

I am grateful! I am joyful! I wan't to praise Him! Worship Him because of all He done for me. That's what I feel.